Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Well...

It's been 3 months and lots of things have been going on around chez Rougeux... Mostly involving one sweet little girl who has been doing a whole lot of growing up, and a certain mamma who has been trying to get a handle on things around here.

I remember when I was working 60 or 70 hours a week, especially during my pregnancy, when I just simply could.not.wait to be a stay at home mom. I would literally day-dream about how I would spend my abundant free time, what I would do to "keep" myself busy, etc... I just knew I was going to be blogging and going on play dates every day, scrapbooking all the time, completing all sorts of projects around the house as well as making sure Matthew came home to a beautifully clean house and homemade dinner every night.

Ummmm, yeah.... About that...

So this stay at home mom thing is easily the most difficult job I have ever had. Part of it is purely a personality thing. You see, structure doesn't come easy to me. I think that's part of the reason I love nursing... there is built in structure. These meds, due at these times, assessments at other times, etc... It's pretty easy to stay on track when everything is dictated by protocols. Obviously, there are times when things aren't going according to schedule, but you still have that built in structure to get you back on track when things do finally slow down. With this whole "mostly" stay-at-home mom/wife gig, I just have a to-do list that's a mile long without any procedures or policies outlining how exactly I am supposed to check those things off. Then my compensatory mechanism clicks in: If I can't figure out what to do and how to do it, I just do nothing. By doing nothing I don't mean that I just sit on my bum all day. In fact, I do very little bum-sitting. But instead I just run in circles all day and at the end of the day I haven't completed a darn thing.

Then the conversation happens that I dread on those days:

Me: Hi hunny, did you have a good day at work?
Hubby: Yeah it was fine, How was yours?
Me: Oh it was good, I was just really busy...
Hubby: Oh well that's good, what did you do today?
Me: ummmm..... {{crickets}}

So I've taken the past few months to try to figure these things out and get some structure to my life.

Just like any journey... there are good days and there are bad days.

But I figure there are very few people who in life can do a career switch and be completely proficient and efficient just a year into it.

And if you're one of those people... I would love to hear how you do it. But, if your methods involve skipping sleep or meals or hiring things done... I'm out.

Well I'm off to tackle some items on that infamous to-do list...

Hopefully I'll sit back down soon and put of some pictures of a very cute girl's birthday party, and our family vacation to Charleston.

Until then,